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Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
I'm 14 years old. Lives somewhere in Subang Jaya. I'm bipolar. Sometimes, too-hyped up, sometimes, too-emotional.
I have great friends and family. I like doing too many things.. I like cooking, baking, writing
stories, songs, singing, drawing, decorating, making things pretty, i like making a fool out of myself, i like acting, talking, crying without a reason.
and i get fascinated by things a lot. even little things
i shouldnt bother to fascinate about. Everything is wrong with me. ;P I'm self-absorbed, lazy, always hungry,
and i like trying new things and i like changes. I'm not constant. I'm persistent, and sometimes lucky. I'm impatient, dramaqueen, greedy and FAT. I like having
things my way sometimes. SOMETIMES. very straightforward, but dishonest. And i try to be friendly, so go on and say hi. :)
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hi, you. navigations on the left, yeah you know what to do. ;)
Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
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SundaySunday, March 14, 2010back to top?
I told you a few months back that i have prepared some words for you, though i must admit sadly that i do not recall where i have saved those words, i do now have something else to say. I may have upset you the way you have upset me, but that is the way it always it. Both of us have many things in common that we both do not dare to admit in ourselves. We hide our feelings and we are like in masquerades, hiding our true selves. We may be too honest sometimes, and we may hide what we shouldn't. I must carry on to the point of this post. The reason why i have not treat you so well these past few days was because of my own selfish reasons. And that was why i was too ashamed to tell everyone about it. I only told those i truly trust most, and would understand if they were in my situation. I thank dearly to Puteri for being the first to talk to me when i cried my eyeballs off, and to Aida, the one who tried her hardest to make the situation better, and being there when i wasn't for her. Amira, for understanding so much. Lukman, for concerning, and i need to thank Akmal and Azman too, for being such a whiny meanie. Back to where we started, the reason for why i was mad will not be told here, but if i'm ready i'd tell you face to face. Like i said, you know me better than anyone else, so you should understand why i need a break from all of this. I must say i feel really bad about this, and everytime i can't stop getting my mind off of these argument, but you don't seem to care, you seem like you're having a jolly good time without me. I told Mai that we will eventually be friends again, in fact i'm sure of it. But in the meantime, take this as a vacation until both of us are ready to put back our masks on and enjoy this masquerade.
P/s: Today was a horrible day for me. Hope you're happy.
PPS; if you are not happy or if you're dissatisfied about my choice, you simply don't get me. And if you don't get me at this point, then i doubt that you ever will.
Don't try making me feel better, i'm only getting worse.
You can't just say whatever you want. You're as responsible for your words as you are for your actions. And some words hurt. Smart people know what to say, a wise person knows whether to say it or not.
So my heart has been shipwrecked again, and i try to swim, to dry land to reach the shore. It's a desert island, and i write "Help" in the sand as large as i can that you ignored, so i'm waving at airplanes, waiting for ships to come take me away. When i noticed the tide sure is coming in fast, i guess that this song really would be my last. So, the quicksand is pulling me down you couldve pulled that rope, you could save me from despair. I was cast away you let me drown so i tried to scream but i bet no one would hear. Put a message in a bottle that you'd never read, so this is the last song that you'll get from me.
I feel like i'm stranded here with no one to rescue me, abandoned by everyone i need. I feel like you played me, i feel like such a fool, left stranded here by you.
Those dark clouds bring all the winter rain. Something tells me we'll be together again. At the end of the day though my heart burns, I am still in love, As our dreams fade away and the world turns we will meet strangers on that road and feel like, we both know. I watch the flame Its flickering in the wind again its blowing out before nature has its way While there's love to save. We both know that we're holding on cause we cant let go. Have to give up on the fear of being alone yea we both know As night falls we lose sight in the haze, something tells me we will be together again.
last night at Siti's surprise birthday party, it was hella awesome. (: Although i might not feel well, i still did have fun and the party turned out pretty successful (:
Don't know who my real friends are anymore, I put my faith in you, what a stupid thing to do. And not to mention, the tears I cried. I should have kicked your ass instead, i need intervention, attention to stop this temptation to scream. Cause everything is F'ed up straight from the start, TELL me what do you do when it all falls apart? Got to pick myself up where do i start? Cause i can't turn to you when it all falls apart.
Can it be easier? Couldn't i change my life? Because it seems to just go bad every time! Will i be mending? Another one ending once again.
i used to laugh it off, i used to look the other way, i used to save the troubles for another day, i never used to take the blame, i'd pull a sunshine story in a pouring rain, the more i had to change the more i stayed the same. I used to bide my time, i used to beat around the bush, I'd rather give my ego another push, I used to be a fool, it was a foolish game i played, and it's a fool's faith counting mistakes i made, I once had it all but it was all too late.
You don't know what you've got until you're missing it a lot. I had to go throw it away, I was wrong from the start, from the bottom of my heart i apologize. What i did to you was hurtful, what i'm going through is hurtful
It gets harder everyday, but I can't seem to shake the pain. I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay. It's written all over my face, I can't function the same when you're not here, calling your name when no one's there. And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy. I still can't believe you've found somebody new. But I wish you the best, I guess.
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows. How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt. We've heard it all before,that everybody knows just how to make it right. I wish we gave it one more try Cause everybody knows, nobody really knows.
I don't care what people say, they brought it all in anyway. don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said. It seems like you just don't know.The radio's on, you're tuning me out. I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down. I still can't believe you've found somebody new. But I wish you the best, I guess.
Michael Buble is in love with someone else, leaving me broken hearted,.
True love walked out the door, i couldn't take it no more. True love, it broke my heart and made my whole life sore, you said you'd be my baby then why did you betray me? Temptations got to his head. Then i left him, and this is what i say, "It feels like, it's gonna be okay.", and "It feels right, it just feels that way. It feels like, it will be a better day. Cause i believe in the end good things are coming my way.",
