hi, you. navigations on the left, yeah you know what to do. ;)
Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
I'm 14 years old. Lives somewhere in Subang Jaya. I'm bipolar. Sometimes, too-hyped up, sometimes, too-emotional.
I have great friends and family. I like doing too many things.. I like cooking, baking, writing
stories, songs, singing, drawing, decorating, making things pretty, i like making a fool out of myself, i like acting, talking, crying without a reason.
and i get fascinated by things a lot. even little things
i shouldnt bother to fascinate about. Everything is wrong with me. ;P I'm self-absorbed, lazy, always hungry,
and i like trying new things and i like changes. I'm not constant. I'm persistent, and sometimes lucky. I'm impatient, dramaqueen, greedy and FAT. I like having
things my way sometimes. SOMETIMES. very straightforward, but dishonest. And i try to be friendly, so go on and say hi. :)
Talk to me :) ♥♥ read from BOTTOM TO TOP!~! and wait for it to load if it doesnt appear. After writing the message, it might not appear, so refresh the page!
thank you :)
hi, you. navigations on the left, yeah you know what to do. ;)
Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
I Feel So Stuck and Trapped. I feel as if had been deprived from my smiles. Let me cope, for at least a second, and I'd be happy to oblige all that had been asked by you. Tonight, without any warning, Azam came to my house, with his friends calling my name. I never had thought that it was he that came. I never had thought i would even see him nowadays. With a jiffy, i went outside and was been asked if i still remember azam. I was blank, and asked which azam. Believe it or not, my face was like this -> O.O
Just now, Ikhwan said sorry. I forgave him, with insincerity. Am i that bad of a person?
I HATE THAT FREAKING K. with the capital H and the capital A, followed by T and letter E.
He makes me so mad sometimes.
Please, K. Just once, have respect for me. But yeah, you have magic in your eyes. With just a look, i'd forgive you again. Idiot. ;D WednesdayWednesday, September 30, 2009back to top?
Midnight bottle take me come with me my memories and everything come back to me
Midnight bottle make it real what feels like make believe so I can see a little more clearly
Like every single move you make kissing me so carefully on the corners of my dreaming eyes
I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before When everything felt so right If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight Got a midnight bottle drifting off into the candlelight where I can find you in your time A midnight bottle I forgot how good it felt to be in a dream just like you had me Cuz lately I’ve been stumbling feels like I’m recovering
Hello, It's wan. Just wan. No story. Just a random boring note i feel likg writing :) I am currently running away. From a lot of people. Idon't know if i feel sorry. I feel sorry about something. I kept on bore people who follows this blog to death. Whether it's deadly or it's not.
Making cupcake is fun if you can eat it too. I once made really pink one and a beautiful sun on top of it using a bright yellow icing. I don't know why i am writing this.
Today was quite peculiar, in a very peculiar way. Puteri said it was the best day of her life, it's the first time i heard that. Also, it was the first time, hearing Aliah talking about death and such. It was also the first time, that person said sorry. Please, i hope that person meant it. It was the first time i heard my mom said "what's wrong liking someone? go for it!". It was the first time we had our daily taklim without both our parents (since mama had a headache and ayah was out)
I shouted towards the sky, asking what time it was. I think someone heard me. But that person decided not to care that much. But i would have appreciated it if that person would actually tell me what time it was. THAT would be very helpful, thank you very much.
i have got to be kidding myself, yet i still don't know what i am kidding about.
btw, i am eating toast with kaya. Now there's too much sugar on my body and my tongue. It's annoying. TuesdayTuesday, September 29, 2009back to top?
I don’t really know how to tell you this, I'm in love with your catI think I realized it that night you picked your nose with George Bush and Stephen Harper and Hit on the elephant in the corner. I’m sure you’remasochistic enough to understand That I get turned on only by garbage men. I’m returning the couch cushions to you, but I’ll keep suicidal note as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about the moose poachingand you should stop picking your nose Greetings to your frog Leonard, Wan
------------------------ And Btw, if you're there... you should know that i am here too. And I'm standing here, feeling lonely and waiting for it to rain, pouring hard. But yes, the rain won't last forever. But if the sunshine would not last, you should let go.
although
Days go by and I'll grow stronger, It takes time but i'll never let go, days go by and I'll try harder ,to make it mine
Its something special to me, more than I hoped for, more than I dreamed of, this is how it should be
The little things, you do to me are taking me over, i wanna show ya everything inside of me like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating my feet are stuck here, against the pavement i wanna break free, i wanna make it closer to your eyes, get your attention before you pass me by
Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you.
Earlier today, was a little humiliating. Other than trying to run away from the obvious facts, i also made a fool of myself as i tried to rush to the musolla, i had to hide myself in terror, in embarrassment. Maybe it wasn't as bad as i thought it was. At least i got to prove to them that I am not at all 'perfect', or at least i am not trying to be. And yes, just because of today, I finally found out something.
So don't just leave me hanging on
I never once had known anything about "K's" feeling. Today might be a good thing after all, i am happy to know that i came back from school with a big proud smile on my face. Even if soon after that i got stressed again.
And every time, you notice me by holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things i don't believe, that it could be you speekin your mind and, sayin the real thing my feet have broke free, and i am leavin i'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but
i wont forget you, and i won't think this was just a waste of time
And i don't know if it will be worth waiting, but yes, i will. Ha ha, I don't know, maybe sometimes i feel actually very happy being around "K's", So, yeah why don't i just make a fool out of myelf?? Why can't I just be so foolish, be so desperate.
So, Today is a little unusual. Tonight is unusual too. I finally could see the stars so bright, dancing with the loveliest moon on the luminous sky. I smiled.
It's been a minute since you left me Out here on my own And I'd never felt this empty Since I been alone And the silence is louder than any fight we've ever had before You don't even know The time for night to turn to morning Never took this long And there's nothing to take from me Cause you're already gone Bein hurt for a while's how I'll get over you
So keep callin me names, babe Tell everyone I'm crazy Do whatcha gotta do To forget bout me and you If it's easier to hate me Then go on have your way babe Do whatcha gotta do To forget bout me and you
I can't remember to forget you Whenever there's another I accidently just compare you But they don't measure up Every mile that I steer Every song that I hear is a memory of you Please leave me alone And no matter what Please don't regret all the times you Pretend you don't see me It's pathetic I try to despise you Just like you do with me Love just don't disappear especially when it's true
Yay, one rabbit was saved rofl. It took time for it to get used to us, but whetever, it's fine now. The mother is lazying around so we had to feed it with something else.
Today.... lazy to coma la especially because of the latih tubi thing. Who wants to do that anyway? Boooring. :D
I'm getting worse in writing blogs. Please, forgive me.
d(^_^)b <-- knows what that means? i don't =.=;
Sooooo. How are you?
+_+ I'm fine, how about you?
Fine as always, thanks for asking.
No prob'
Okaay, this is why people said i'm crazy.
OMG I SAW A TENTACLE! 0.0 it was huge.
Btw, i haven't told anyone this but.... i have a cat who thinks its a cow.
WednesdayWednesday, September 16, 2009back to top?
I'll wait for you, like i said i would. Come on, don't be such an ass and come back home. :) people are waiting for you, don't you know that?
btw.
I'm eating gum, blowing bubbles. I'm bored. I came back from the buka puasa with Nadiana and Yanie. I came back home. My mom started questioning me o.o but she didn't mind cause she knows yanie and nad. So she asked me to buy baskin's ice cream, but i didnt because i didn't realize she sent me a msg.
everything went so fast. i found out a deep secret. i can't believe she did that.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009back to top?
Autumn has come through the wind The smell of the autumn has come so suddenly And is making these times stumble The high and blue sky It’s so clear that my eyes are chilled It keeps bringing tears to my eyes Even looking at the sky makes me tear up This 2009 autumn…
Hm, i don't feel like writing yesterday even though Kak Wai gave me the laptop, but i slept through the whole night since i cried too much yesterday night. It wasn't anyone's fault cause i don't know whose fault it is. Now, the person who did all this is asking for forgiveness.
The thing is, Jay left, you see. Without a warning, as i got home from school, i thought he was going to stay.. my last post said that he's staying but he's not. He made his decision and he left, at 5 PM.
Yes, i was still at school and i didn't know a thing. I didn't even get to say bye or to even see him yesterday.
i cried again. kak Wai said her friend's friend is in ICU yesterday because she tried to kill herself.
Woo fainted yesterday at the airport when Jay was leaving.
I know this all seemed so fast. this all happened yesterday.
eighth of September, is a day to remember.
And now it's 9th of 9 of 2009. it's supposed to be a great day for the sones. but i don't feel anything anymore. Efelle thinks soo too.
Jay said he's coming back.
I'll wait for him. Wednesday, September 09, 2009back to top?
Hello, so since Deanna and Nina posted what they had miss, the moments in stndrd 6, i wanna write too hahahahahahahahahahahah.
1. I miss leaving the classes without teacher knowing. 2. i miss the cafeteria workers rofl. 3. i miss the awesome teachers. 4. i miss all the dramas. 5. I miss having the juniors laughing and playing around with you. 6. I miss the times when i had to take care of the students in other classes. 7. I miss the power we had when we were the prefects. 8. I miss choral speaking. 9. I miss the old students... i really miss them really really bad. 10. I miss the times when we would go to the library and make noises there. 11. I miss the times when we would join every clubs or whatever. 12. I miss the standard ones. 13. I miss being smart (well smarter than i am now haha)
^ Notice there, i wrote until thirteen. being thirteen is boring.
Oh yeah, Jay is fine now, so I'm really happy. It was official. He's going to stay <3 MondayMonday, September 07, 2009back to top?
I just got back from tennis... okay so maybe the tennis was like, 2 hours ago, but who cares. It was still fun ^^
I think, in my opinion the best part was the people there who were reallly friendly, although Nadia said that they were shy and quiet around Aina and Batrisya . both of them went before. >_<
School was terribly weird today i got so anxious about nothing and i felt really guilty to myself about it, i dont know why. My leg hurt by the way, and people had been asking me why.
i dont know.
Nadiana and Yanie didn't come.
Puteri didnt come.
Oh yeah, our PJ teacher is going away and it was her last day. She's really nice. :) we took pictures together (all of us 1D,1C,1V)
It was hella awesome.
SaturdaySaturday, September 05, 2009back to top?
HANGKYUNG! Kyuhyun and Donghae, both two of my faves. JUNGSOO YAAAHH i mean, teukie teukie angel. rofl. random.
Wooyoung! Fellow chinese-eans. Donghae from his cyworld entry photo. Eunhyuk, my prince! Correction - frog prince HAHAHAHA
Taeyang goon with his priceless moon crescent shaped eyes and wide smile. Totally priceless rofl! This is seriously hilarious! Shindong! haha DORK! T.O.P, totally in my toplist ;) Key's expression ; "WHAT THE HELL?" ahahahaha! xD
Aw, Taeyeonie. I literally LOL-ed at this seriously! hahahaha Key is so cute PFFT prettiest? hahahaha Wooyoungie!! i think this is my fave icon, he's so cute and his expression is really funny. F.T, I-S-L-A-N-D let's go! Taemin! the sweet smiling noona's heart throb, mr. Taemin. He takes my breath away when he smiles. And as for my Nichkhun, my old time lover, and still my lover (part time HAHAHA) he helped me cheat on my wooyoung rofl! the power of 2PM. So, people what time is it???
2PM!!! i mean, 8 AM hahahahaha.
I wonder if i can get Jokwon's icon then i'd edit this later and post it up.
Love!
-credits to those who made these themselves, they're JJANG, haha i own none of those. WednesdayWednesday, September 02, 2009back to top?
i'll be editing this when i got home from school kkays?
Loves.
-This had been edited at about six 30-
I'm back! School was fascinating today.
Really. I took my time slowly going up to class, Puteri told me to cause she said i'd be passing by someone's class. Well, true. but i'm not sure i even wanted to see 'someone'.
I found out that people read my blog.I'm scared.. but happy :) thank you for viewing, hahahaa. although i know it's boring. :D hahaha, it would mean a lot to me if you post a comment or post something in my cbox to let me know you have read this :)
uhh..
if you don't know where the cbox is located, try clicking on the pictures beside this post! :]
Me and nuri went to the bilik guru 2 to pass up her KGT project, and i fell in love!! with her KGT project of course! her folio is seriously nice ^^ I tried to name him Kevin G Taylor HAHAHAH!!!
Get it?
If you don't, please re-read it hahahaha.
I'm so happy today! Aren't you? People SHOULD be happy today! because it's tuesday! It's not too bright, not too cold, just the right weather, but...
there's no such thing as bad or good weather!
Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up,snow is exhilerating!
Mark my words, lad.
Oh boogey i went to the bazaar with Nadia and found out that we're actually really blessed that we are from SMK USJ 12, believe it or not, after seeing the fourians and the thirteens passing by us, laughing their asses off. No offense. I actually have lots of friends there and they are really nice. :] seriously, i come in peace!
So, today as usual, as girls, gossips are our daily routines, we would be grouped in a circle, talking about boys. HAHAHA.
Well, as for me, i'm an angel you see, and i only listen.
But,
I'm also a devil
I like to spread it around PUAHAHAHHAHAHA
No lah, just kidding :)
hm. what else am i supposed to talk about today? :D oh yes!
oh wait. i forgot again.
Nevermind. That would be all for now~
*kisses* Wantastic
By the way , sorry if my post today is too colourful or too 'italicish' or tooo 'big and smallish' or too 'boldish.' i'm just too happy and too bored. TuesdayTuesday, September 01, 2009back to top?
