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Great expectations

I decided to maybe publish a book before leaving high school. It's something i'm "okay" at, and it'll open up great opportunity for me, at least, since i'm never good at the academic-y stuff.

i have been a little psyched about writing a new post today, before going to school, but i simply have no idea what to write now. i guess i'll post a new one next time, yeah?

Monday Monday, June 29, 2009 back to top?
The Lost Art of Keeping Secrets

Hello, just a quick update to y'all. ^^

I have finally (almost) finished reading my book in exactly twooo *epmphasizing the word two* hours. Whoa. Still, pelat-ed R Harry *Hawwee* still hasn't got over Marina yet, and Penelope hasn't got over Rocky yet

Grrr.

I am in Love with Harry Delancey ~

and i wish i could read Eva Rice's non-fiction book "Who's who in Enid Blyton". i realized Eva rice mentioned Enid Blyton at least two times in her book.

She must be a fan huh? she also wrote about CS Lewis (Narnia).

Well, *yawn*

Goodnight~

Friday Friday, June 26, 2009 back to top?
Morning glory

As i see looked up into those eyes, his vision borrows mine.

i survived through school today, it was hard though, i read my book "The Lost Art of Keeping Secrets" by Eva Rice , just to kill time. It's also entertaining at the same time, i sang all the time. see how chirpy and cheery i am at school? a little different in bloggoh right? :D

Puteri and Nuri had been a little perverted today, oh help me dear god.

=.=

Oh yeah

I SUPPORT JIESTINA, yue qin~ The bitchy babe LMAO!

Thursday Thursday, June 25, 2009 back to top?
the world is mine

Yes, a new skin! i'd probably be jumping for joy right now. when i first saw it, i liked it, and so i did whatever bla bla bla, and here it is, and suddenly i saw "Mommy says i got too obsessed with kim jaejoong but who cares anyway" gosh, i love Jaejoongie!!

why can't i get the song out of my head? the iklan song. =.= it's not even a nice song

Wednesday Wednesday, June 24, 2009 back to top?
Genie in the bottle

i realized it was time for me to update again, although i have never trusted my inner thoughts. I was also out of ideas and i still am. I probably won't be needing you much now. it's normal for me to think that way, and like i said, don't trust my inner thoughts. it will destroy you, hehe.

And yes, i remember you la kak alin ;) if you're reading this now. To tell you what really happened, actually nothing happened between us ^^ i was purposely exaggerating to get attention *hmmph* but i don't understand THAT inner thoughts too. What i meant was, it is nothing, and you probably shouldn't worry so much. It's awkward for people to actually read my blog unless i forced you to, hehe.

These nights people had been keepng me company, in a very weird scary way though. Telling me doll wrapped in kain kapan doesn't interest me even in a little bit. They scare me, like people in masks does. It's a natural tingly feeling, like when i spider crawl on your shoulders and make you fidget.

i admit, i was also treating them weirdly, but don't judge me even if i tend to say that i'm a cat alien married to gary the snail (from spongebob leatherpants) and can transform into a singing rabbitgerator (Efelle taught me this word, it's a fridge full of rabbits). Usually i'd sing a lullaby.

I would sometimes dance randomly in class too, whenever i'm stressed, desperate or just plain bored. It's natural, as they say. It's in my schedule everyday, on the regular basis.

I've done NIE star by the way, and i need to say, i'm quite proud of what i had done. ^^ it's a success!

-Sowoneul malhaebwa?

Tuesday Tuesday, June 23, 2009 back to top?
Daddy's girl ?


Wishing all Daddies, (especially MINE) a very very happy daddy's day. I'm sorry my dad is out for 40 days, and unfortunately he's not here to celebrate this special day although i think even if he's here he won't be too estatic about celebrating either, but we will anyway <3

And i'm also unfortunate now cause i can't finish up my Sejarah (history) Scrapbook till he's home so that he could fill up some of the gaps in the "family informations" lol.

<3

With Lots of Love.

P/s - Happy 100th Post anniversary, i love you.

Sunday Sunday, June 21, 2009 back to top?
Cause i still remember the l o v e i left behind

Always knew that when we said goodbye
It wouldn't last forever
Always thought that I'd run into you
And we'd get back together........

Now you're here
Just like I imagined
But never once did it cross my mind
That you could move on.......

You've found someone
It breaks my heart
Cuz you're so in love

I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that
And I wish that I had you
the way that she has
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

I think somebody's tryin' to talk to me
But I can't hear a word they're saying
All I can do is stare at you
I don't even know why I'm staying
Never thought, I'd cry to see you Happy Its Just I Thought that your happiness
Was right here with me

I know we're through
It's no use
Still I can't help but feel......


I used to be right beside you
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart
I put our love upon a shadow
But now it's gone
Cuz you belong to someone else.......

Sunday, June 21, 2009 back to top?
Does anybody have a heart?

There's something you're keeping,
locked up inside,
lost in the darkness,
deep in your eyes,
you don't show your feelings,
what's on your mind,
you don't make it easy,
but im still on your side,
oh stop sinking blinded by pride,
but nothing has changed,
i still feel the same way,


(don't ya give up) give up on me,
it's just a little time i need,
(i'll give ya the love) the love you need,
it's hard to find this kind of chemistry,
(i've got what i want) so don't be afraid,
everything i've got i need,
(don't ya give up) give up on me,
(i miss you so much)basically


you think somethings missing,
drifting away, but stop what your thinking
cause nothing has changed,
i won't be a memory,
i'll keep it alive,
although your not near me,
im still by your side,
oh stop sinking its only your pride,
and nothing has changed,
i still feel the same way,


don't forget the times spent together,
things are gonna be fine whatever,
so whatever you do

don't you give up, give up on me.


-Amy Pearson


While you were making up your mind, i was making up mind too. Okay, so i can't speak out what's on my mind now cause my mind is singing a song "No, i don't i don't i don't i don't miss you~"


I almost flipped out of embarrassment and this time, literally when suddenly a confession dropped in front of me, and at the time, i was gritting my teeth, i was thinking of options. "Baby, sorry, but no." would be, a little inappropriate?


And so i tried to say it in a better, non-snobbish, down to earth-ly way. But, say. I said it, a little wrongly?

I mean, i told him i liked someone else, which made him ask me who. I didn't honestly say it. Okay, i did tell him the other one that i like, but oh well, he's my sister's friend. ha ha. I hope he doesn't know anyone who knows my sister's friend..

-You're probably bored to death, and that i meant literally too.-


Does anybody have a heart,

That isn't make of broken parts

pieces of love,

pieces of pain.




Sunday, June 21, 2009 back to top?
Waiting

He is approaching
from a far distance
How am i supposed to express
my shaking heart

He stole my heart
from the very start
And by giving me an illness i will not recover

I want to be a flowerpot
that stand on it's window sill
Even if i won't be able to say anything
or to expect anything

From time to time,
i'll receive his smile and caresses
and just watch his sleeping face

He is leaving
Very far away
How am i supposed to soothe these falling tears?

He stole my heart
from the very start
And by giving me an illness i will not recover

I want to be a flowerpot
that stand on it's window sill
Even if i won't be able to say anything
or to expect anything

From time to time,
i'll receive his smile and caresses
and just watch his sleeping face

HAAA <3

Saturday Saturday, June 20, 2009 back to top?
:O

I posted the latest account, there was actually written something after the ><>.. It was about what i was scared of other than throwing up or whatever. But, suddenly when i clicked on 'done' and view blog, it turned out different, i guess i accidentally pressed on backspace, without realizing it. Meaning that i shouldn't write about it??

Tell me what you think

W

Thursday Thursday, June 18, 2009 back to top?
We are honest liars.

We both said we can do it
We were both fighters.
But we know we hate liars.
Liars like us?

-- Okay.

I don't need anymore lectures from myself, telling me i need to do everything like everyone. Be perfect, be this be that and nag nag nag nag. I'm tired of it. Now at least i understand what he meant. Yes, my lectures are stupid, got a problem with that?

I've been downloading sad songs for mama cause she said she wanted to hear songs that i like. and so i downloaded it, burned it, so that someone could know how i'm feeling. Mama said i'm just being sappy and sentimental, she said i'm thirteen for god sake, i don't need a life yet. Oh i don't want a life, Mama. I already got one... A bitter, one ^^.

And so,
I didn't come again today, it's not that i'm lazying around, i'm just scared. Not of teachers or undone homeworks. I am just scared i'll be like yesterday. BM time,, throwing up isn't in my "Favourite Hobby" list.

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Of course i feel bad after what happened. You think i have no feelings ke apa? I once said to ikhwan, i am TOO HYPER and OVERLY SENSITIVE. is that a crime?

& so again, i'll fake a smile, but my dying eyes are deceiving me.

Thursday, June 18, 2009 back to top?
Monkey, let's dance together.

I was blind
But oh, how you could see
You saw the beauty in everything, everything and me

I would cry
And you would smile
You'd stay with me a little while

Sweet misery you cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery you cause me

I said all those stuffs you'd probably don't understand, so please read this with your eyes closed. Do you miss me? cause i miss you, bloggggoh.

Stories of the month - Since i didn't get to say much last time, here's a very looong story about my life now oh-kay?

Haha, exams. i probably shouldn't say much about it cause you'd know how it went, i know la of course, it is cause you also pernah 'mengalami' zaman persekolahan. Ne?

Second~ Haha, umm. -__- well, we changed our english teacher, i didn't get to see the new teacher yesterday cause i didn't come. and today we had no english lessons so, i'll be meeting her tomorrow. i hope she'd be as nice as miss ngim. It'll be until september since it's uhh, kinda like a training for that teacher, she's actually from UITM so.

Thirdly - I figure out i love Kang+yeon , Shi+Fany/ Dong+fany/ Hyun+fany, alsooo Sun+min. <3 they are loove. Alsoo Hyo+kook, if there's such a word. hehehe.

Fourth - We did this 'prank' to Aliah. (We is Yanie , Nad, and some other few people) heh. Well, supposedly Yanie wanted to do on three of us (Nad, Aliah and I) but as we talked on MSN, Yanie told us the truth, and we decided to continue our prank to Aliah. So we went to school on Monday, Yanie kept on scolding Nad, she said bad stuffs to me, and completely ignored Aliah. I acted as if i cried, and so yeah, tears rolled from my eyes, which made aliah believe it more. Then then, waktu balik, i gaduh with Yanie, Aliah stood close to her, and so i sprayed water to Yanie, and Aliah kena. Yanie was laughing and she said she cannot tahan dah so We laughed like crazy and told her the truth. it was funnnn <3

Fifth - We're doing oral, in malay , nt english, bummer -___- and so, well i was paired up with Hafiz and Jie Wen. Can you believe it?? like omgawd, both of them are guys for god's sake, everyone asked the teacher to switch, but Encik Azuad asked us ten reasonable reasons (huahua!) for us to switch, so everyone HAD TO actually listen to him. So, no changing partners, mate!

Sixth - I made a few songs lately, and the songs are all summed up to the same story, to the same guy. Macam, wthe?

seventh - Alrighty, N and Big Bun triangle love story is back again! She came to me this morning, i mean, afternoon and told me that S told her that S and Him are back again. But we don't know if this is true, so w're in the middle of investigation~ haha!

Eighth - Oh, darling. Many people said i got H1n1. I don't know.. my cold and all were matched with the symptoms of the influenza, but i don't know??

9th - Encik Azuad (the BM teacher) asked me to read the puisi, and so i did. he made fun with my 'R' pronunciation. he said i pelat R which i am not. he said that maybe it's normal for someone who is always speaking in english. Which is not true again! i don't just speak in English, i speak in Malay too!

10th - There's this story, where it's a secret...

Thursday, June 18, 2009 back to top?
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