hi, you. navigations on the left, yeah you know what to do. ;)
Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
I'm 14 years old. Lives somewhere in Subang Jaya. I'm bipolar. Sometimes, too-hyped up, sometimes, too-emotional.
I have great friends and family. I like doing too many things.. I like cooking, baking, writing
stories, songs, singing, drawing, decorating, making things pretty, i like making a fool out of myself, i like acting, talking, crying without a reason.
and i get fascinated by things a lot. even little things
i shouldnt bother to fascinate about. Everything is wrong with me. ;P I'm self-absorbed, lazy, always hungry,
and i like trying new things and i like changes. I'm not constant. I'm persistent, and sometimes lucky. I'm impatient, dramaqueen, greedy and FAT. I like having
things my way sometimes. SOMETIMES. very straightforward, but dishonest. And i try to be friendly, so go on and say hi. :)
Talk to me :) ♥♥ read from BOTTOM TO TOP!~! and wait for it to load if it doesnt appear. After writing the message, it might not appear, so refresh the page!
thank you :)
hi, you. navigations on the left, yeah you know what to do. ;)
Hey, this is Wan Ruqaiyah Nurminnurain's horrible page of boredom, emoness, happiness, memories, randomness.
You'll die here, because everything written here will eat you up, makes you think, and will break your heart.
Sincerely. :)
And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you. I don't wanna talk about it 'Cause I'm in love with you.
So i got back from the tiring journey. Terengganu. It was fun, although i was tired of the long car - ride. I stole some glances at the sky and smiled to myself as if nothing happened and thought about some stuff. I also played sudoku hahahaha.
Faris was being so adorable. Hanis was being her usual self, Arif too. tomorrow is the start of school again, and somehow i feel a little excited to go to the torturing school.
It wasn't such a surprise, since i myself know why i wanted to go to school again.
PS ; I'm always the same, yet i'm different.
PPS ; i have a head ache, and i don't wanna talk about it.
MondayMonday, August 31, 2009back to top?
I've seen the movies so many times now, heck, i even have the DVD <3>
I have the other version of them, live, which was hundred times cooler though, It was from Super Junior Super Show, i want it baaadly.
From what i know, Sungmin is either peter pan or robin hood, Umm.. Ryeowook is Harry potter, Ki Bum is dracula, Shindong is a.. stone man or caveman<-- whatever it is... Kangin is a clown, Si won is Zorro, Eunhyuk is Bruce Lee, Kyuhyun is an officer, Yesung is a chinese ghost or something, Hangkyung as Prince from Goong <3
And btw, in my opinion, Heechul is a perfect korean Jack Sparrow. Especially when he flips his hair rofl!
Hey, i have a new thing to talk about haha. The reason why i'nm practically dancing for joy? well, yeah i'm going to tell you what happened. Or "will" happen...
I'm going to get a new phone *hops around*
Seriously i think i'm fed up with my other phone. T-T
Now now. i have another story to tell. I had a dream. It was weird. Okay end of story. Ciao. MondayMonday, August 24, 2009back to top?
Cinderella's on her bedroom floor She's got a Crush on the guy at the liquor store Cause Mr. Charming don't come home anymore And she forgets why she came here Sleeping Beauty's in a foul mood For shame she says None for you dear prince, I'm tired today I'd rather sleep my whole life away than have you keep me from dreaming
'cause I don't care for your fairytales You're so worried about the maiden though you know She's only waiting on the next best thing
Snow White is doing dishes again cause What else can you do With seven itty-bitty men? Sends them to bed and calls up a friend Says will you meet me at midnight? The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows
Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom Man made up a story said that I should believe him Go and tell your white knight that he's handsome in hindsight But I don't want the next best thing So I sing and hold my head down and I break these walls round me Can't take no more of your fairytale love
I don't care Worry bout the maiden though you know She's only waiting spent the whole life being graded on the sanctity of patience and a dumb Appreciation But the story needs some mending and a better happy ending Cause I don't want the next best thing
I showed my story to Nina, You see. She liked it. Oh, i hpe everyone else will too i wonder how they will respond to it though.. there are too many secrets revealed in the story. i hope they don't mind some of my dearest confessions.
Cadd9 G AM C I wonder if you and your heart are ready to fall in love with me And if you asked me to wait to say the same, then I can do with that. And Ill be here for you when youre ready just to let you know. But you have my heart already n I cant let you go
Am C G D Clearly we have somethin special here And I wont stop following my heart Cause it got me this far and I love who you are
C G Am D I cant stop thinkin bout ya dont wanna be without ya Youre what I look forward to Each and every day Every moment with you makes me feel so brand new I just cant stop thinkin bout ya I wanna let (strum pause) you know I love youuu
I just cant keep this to myself, I need let it out! Boy you do something to me that makes me sing out loud You seem like mr perfect - I needa tell you how I feel And I dont know what you will say, but it feels so real.
Am C G D Clearly we have somethin special here And I wont stop following my heart Cause it got me this far and I love who you are
C G Am D I cant stop thinkin bout ya dont wanna be without ya Youre what I look forward to Each and every day Every moment with you makes me feel so brand new I just cant stop thinkin bout ya I wanna let (strum pause) you know I love youuu
BRIDGE Em G D And I met you just in time No matter where I am youll be mine X2
C G Am D I cant stop thinkin bout ya dont wanna be without ya Youre what I look forward to Each and every day Every moment with you makes me feel so brand new I just cant stop thinkin bout ya I wanna let (strum pause) you know I love youuu X2
Baby I knew at once That you were meant for me Deep in my soul I know That I'm your destiny Though you're unsure Why fight the tide Don't think so much Let your heart decide
Baby I see your future And it's tied to mine I look in your eyes And see you searching for a sign But you'll never fall 'Til you let go Don't be so scared Of what you don't know
True to your heart You must be true to your heart That's when the heavens will part And baby shower you with my love Open your eyes Your heart can tell you no lies And when you're true to your heart I know it's gonna lead you straight to me
I'm looking for a lover not a friend Somebody who can be there When I need someone to talk to I'm looking for someone who won't pretend Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel, Someone who can keep me real and who knows always Baby I like to have you in my way And I'm looking for someone who takes me there, Wants to share, shows he cares Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for Someone who appreciates that I'm there Someone who listens And someone I can call Who isn't afraid of thought to share
After about a few reads from other people's blog, i was determined to write mine. It's nothing reallly, i just want to speak my mind.
After a few days, i finally got some words out from his mouth. He finally said something. I finally felt relieved.
they called him Gay?
Gays? i mean, are you seriously serious?
What do you know about gays?
-__-'
Moving on. -
I was psyched today, i do not know why, or what is the reason behind all the hyper and highness i've gotten through these few months, i guess i'm just always like that.
Ooh, Class friends. I'm getting along with almost all of them these past few months, so thank you very mcuh, but i'm actually a little pissed and i still am not satisfied with Kai Shun and Yong Jian. They refused to say hi to me for about hundreds of times now. Ooh bummer. But they are awesome. Yay, Ze Yen came again~ i kinda missed the E-News days when Ze Yen, Jason, Puteri, Kian boon and some other people would play along, except for Amir, Harry and Imran, they would make fun of us.
Speaking of Imran, He's moving away (silently dancing for joy) I pity Nass Though. She's in love, i tell you. I found out she's already a couple with him. But i don't mind. Both of them are tall~
Today, the theme was 'secrets', and yeah i've found out lots of secrets from Puteri. She told me about Izwan -Which you don't have to know about *wink*, and yeah. Puteri said it's true although i don't really think i want to believe that.
I've told her mine.
Well, some of it.
We've seen our class pictures today, btw. The 'informal' ones which we can do it free-style, my face got covered by Puan Parames's hand. i sat beside her since i was the penolong, but then she covered my face with her hand -__-
Well at least it's better than Deanna's problem. Her face was there, but he name wasn't printed on the photo... what luck.
N-e-ways i got to go now then. Have a beautiful night.
This is Nabil. He's form two. And i am taller than him. HAHA -_-'
This is Nabil's sister, Ayah Mar's daughters. One from Cambridge (Kak Anis) and one i do not know and i shall ask my dad or my mom or my sister soon. -_-
You've got a face for a smile, you know A shame you waste it When youre breaking me slowly but Ive got a world of chances, for you Chances that you're burning through.
I've got a paper and pen I go to write a goodbye And thats when I know I've
Got a world of chances, for you chances you were burning through Hey, peeps So today, like what Nuri had posted in her blog, i skipped a few classes because we wanted to do a card for Puan Foziah, it was fun but also tiring cause i had to go around everywhere.
Nabila as usual was being a nuisance :D haha! i knowi'm being mean but wha-te-ver. HAHHAHA
My stomache screams just when i look at you cause you're so hypnotising You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unravling Your love is where im falling But please dont catch me I made chicken pie. But it wasn't nice at all puahaha. Oh yeah puteri wanted to do this choir, and she had to ask Puan Saramah and Puan Arni, and puan arni said that a teacher from Sesi pagi is incharge but she will try to help us, so hopefully we can perform. But then, if we do, puteri wanted to ask Luqman and me to be leads. =.= i never agreed to THAT
he's a pro. i am still an amateur.
And if this is love Please don't break me I'm giving up So just catch me ThursdayThursday, August 13, 2009back to top?
So, i am supposed to get ready for school, but instead i'll blab here, alright?
It seems as if i'm starting to hate him. But that's the reason why i kept on trying to get his attention. cause he avoids me. =.= i know i sound deperate but that's howit goes.
Kak wai's fault also. sheesh.
This saturday maybe i'm coming and i'm so excited about it. there will be senior boys omg ahahahh! Maybe i'll see him? ;D
BBQ party! i'm excited to see them again! it feels so long from the wedding. I dontknow if we'll come to the bbq party but ihope so! and plus, it's BBQ!! meaning there's a lot of fooooooofofoood! *_* i am food crazy btw. PUAYAHAAJHA
Thursday, August 13, 2009back to top?
They'll try to stop the dream we're dreamin' But they can't stop us from believing They will fill your head with doubt But that won't stop us now So let them say we can't do it Put up a road block We'll just run right through it.. Cause...
We can, do the impossible We have the power in our hands And we won't stop 'cause we've got To make a difference in this life With one voice, one heart, two hands, we can
They say the odds are stacked against us But that can't hold us back, we will be relentless There's a voice they're gonna hear A voice so loud and clear So let them say we can't do it, give us a mountain, and we're gonna move it.. cause..
We're gonna make a change today (make a change today) Because we've got the faith it takes To win this race, so let them say we can't do it Put up a road block And we'll just run right through it cuz..
I can (oh I can) Do the impossible (do the impossible) I have the power in my hands, and I won't stop Cause I've got to make a difference in this life With my one voice, one heart, two hands, we can
I want to make a difference in my life. And this time i mean it. this is all because of legally blonde 2, shucks.
Just a little heads up to eveyone so people won't steal them away from me.
Super Junior (other than Shindong and Yesung) *my fave is Kyuhyun and Si Won* , DBSK(other than micky) *fave is changmin and jae and xiah* , 2PM (other than Junsu) *my fave is wooyoung and JB*, Big Bang (especially TOP and Taeyang) , also Kim Bum, and Haejin
THEY ARE MINE Wednesday, August 12, 2009back to top?
hey freaks! there are reasons why i said yesterday was a fine day. Don't ask me what the reason is, you know i wouldn't tell you. Fine, i'll tell you. only a little :P
i had a dream.
It was awhsum.
1cyber rocks btw. More than amigas *wink*
Wednesday, August 12, 2009back to top?
Jae, i love you. both of you Jaes. Oh yeah, by the way, Nuri, the song in my blog is for you, since you like it so much hehe. i had so much fun today even though there isn't any PJ going on. We stayed in 1visto class and complained about the teacher and the person in front of us, also Nabila rofl.
Nuri and i 'acted' as if we were ahjummas, or as you call it, aunts or moms. which was seriously fun. Also, i am very very relieved now that i have passed up my KH work and all. But i don't think i did well in Geo though.
I love you. Wantastic. FridayFriday, August 07, 2009back to top?
I don't know but I think I maybe Fallin' for you Dropping so quickly Maybe I should Keep this to myself Waiting 'til I Know you better
I am trying Not to tell you But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say So I'm hiding what I'm feeling But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life And now I found ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you
As I'm standing here And you hold my hand Pull me towards you And we start to dance All around us I see nobody Here in silence It's just you and me
I'm trying Not to tell you But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say So I'm hiding what I'm feeling But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life and now I found ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you
Oh I just can't take it My heart is racing The emotions keep spinning out
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life and now I found ya I don't know where to I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it I want you all around me And now I just can't hide it I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)
I'm fallin' for you
Ooohhh Oh no no Oooooohhh Oh I'm fallin' for you
i don't know why, but yeah Puteri is right. the song is really nice. XD and it has something to do with someone. OMG i am spazzing over here right now gosh.
alright, since Exam's finally overr, those up there are the things i definitely want to do. Scratch the "go crazy part" cause that's already been done! xD
I don't want to receive my results today. Not ever. Mama is going to kill me.
Thursday, August 06, 2009back to top?
And i hope Mama doesn't read my blog. Or Kak Najah, or Kak Jannah, or kak Wai, or Anyone at all, including ayah. but i have nothing to worry about right?
Someone, please sing this for me...; I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around, But she takes it all for me.And I lost my faith, in my darkest days, But she makes me want to believe.They call her love, love, love, love, love. They call her love, love, love, love, love.She is Love and she's all I need.She's all I need.Well I had my ways, they were all in vain, But she waited patiently.It was all the same, all my pride and shame, And she put me on my feet. -parachute VA - she is all i need 1. I think I want to really say the truth now.
I know it sounds as if all these times I was lying. Yes, I was. Maybe because I’m scared that things will change when I start telling the truth. It wasn’t that long since I have talked about this, about my future.
2. it's a future that will never happen.
Have you ever felt like, all that you do seems wrong when you are facing someone?
3. It feels that way when I’m in front of my family. I don’t laugh or smile like what I would do in school.
Is the real me come out when I’m at home or when I’m with my friends?
I wonder.
4. Maybe I’m fake at school. The laughs I share, all the insincerities, all the dying eyes, that tries to shine.
5. Maybe I’m fake at home. Maybe the real me, is the out going one, but at home, I would take care and try to do my best in everything.
6. I wanted to choose a way, a certain way. But I know I cannot.
7. It’s not just about my parents. It’s not just about my feelings. It’s about their feelings.
8. Everyday, a frown or maybe tears would be shown in my face, silently. When no one can see. Maybe that is why I’m active in the internet. It’s because I can see the outside world.
9. I think I like someone. I don’t know. When he passes by, I would get all giddy. But when he’s not there, I wish he would.
10. I always daydream. I hear sad songs and imagine me singing them in front of people.
11. I make stories, hoping that my own life would be just like it.
12. I’m not scared, just afraid of being scared TuesdayTuesday, August 04, 2009back to top?
Hey awesome people. I am excited. cause i'm the only one in niki's link that got the "(X" thing. even though i didn't get a heart, but it's understandable, and i don't mind at all ^^
Yeah, i made a collab with a fantastic friend slash absolute twinnie, Efelle. She's right here beside me, wanting me to write it down. Pft.
we changed the link into www.bloggspotdotcom.blogspot.com so mind checking that out?
Exam is near baby, it was just like yesterday when i had that stupid first exam i had when i jst got back from Japan. =.=
quote of the day: A secret makes a woman a mystery. SaturdaySaturday, August 01, 2009back to top?