We are honest liars.
We both said we can do it
We were both fighters.
But we know we hate liars.
Liars like us?
-- Okay.
I don't need anymore lectures from myself, telling me i need to do everything like everyone. Be perfect, be this be that and nag nag nag nag. I'm tired of it. Now at least i understand what he meant. Yes, my lectures are stupid, got a problem with that?
I've been downloading sad songs for mama cause she said she wanted to hear songs that i like. and so i downloaded it, burned it, so that someone could know how i'm feeling. Mama said i'm just being sappy and sentimental, she said i'm thirteen for god sake, i don't need a life yet. Oh i don't want a life, Mama. I already got one... A bitter, one ^^.
And so,
I didn't come again today, it's not that i'm lazying around, i'm just scared. Not of teachers or undone homeworks. I am just scared i'll be like yesterday. BM time,, throwing up isn't in my "Favourite Hobby" list.
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Of course i feel bad after what happened. You think i have no feelings ke apa? I once said to ikhwan, i am TOO HYPER and OVERLY SENSITIVE. is that a crime?
& so again, i'll fake a smile, but my dying eyes are deceiving me.
Thursday
Thursday, June 18, 2009
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