Thank you for the music



There was that moment, when i tried to not cry. I don't know if i succeeded, but my eyes got a little bit teary in the end of the day. I was sweating, i was cupping my face with both of my hands, praying for the best for everyone.

It's not easy for some of them, even since the early morning, chaos filled the room, i remember someone crying, hugging me tightly, while praying that she'd get what she wanted. and she did. It was Tahanee. At first everyone put their calm faces on, but their heartbeat was so loud, so fast.. I helped them all, i said to them, they are going to be just fine. They nodded, but we all know, that they are doubting the possibilities, they are doubting themselves.

When the teacher suddenly spoke on the microphone, it was time for the results to come, I stood right behind the stage, to calm those who haven't succeeded. Those who have, they need to stand up on stage with big proud faces on.

Many people had come and go, and i remember, a few that haven't open their slips yet, a sudden tingly feeling were running through my body, and my eyes started to itch a little. They were so calm, so innocent yet so curious, and there were no goods or bads in my opinion, everyone had done their best.

I cried, really hard when suddenly a familliar person went behind the stage, and in my mind, a floating thought was saying "Oh no! He didn't make it?"

In everyone's opinion, he was the smart guy, he was what his parents had always count on, he was almost what every teacher had count on. People started surrounding him, asking him what he got and his answer was simple. "3A 2B.", I started crying just then. I won't tell you who it is, but yeah he's a great person. He didn't even cry. He wasn't even angry, yet he was standing stoned, looking at that piece of paper, staring at it.

I looked around the room, I see some calling their closest family member, some were hugging, some were waving their slips happily, some were crying in the toilet, some were just showing a disappointed smile.

Of course i made time to congratulate the people who had done a pretty amazing job.

"I told you you could do it!" i smiled to Tahanee, who then hugged me really tightly, saying how much she loves me HEHEHE

I told the same thing to Elissa, Mia, Husna, Anna. They got 5As and they deserved it.

I remember congratulating Azhan, who got good results as well, and he gave me one of his shy smile ^^

I also asked some of my close juniors how much they've got, but they crumpled the paper, saying that i've got my 5As, i wouldn't know how they feel. Trust me, i know. I know how it feels to fail in life, i know how it feels to be embarrassed, to feel trusted but once that trust suddenly shatters, people say how proud they are of me when they actually don't. But, look at the optimistic side, there are chances out there. And, and even if I DID got 5As, which was like a miracle and unbelievable, it doesn't mean I'm better than you, and even if you didn't get 5As, it doesn't mean you're not any good than any other people out there on the stage.

Whatever your marks are, people. Like the teacher says, this is only the first hurdle in your life when it comes to education.

"Life is hard, Live with it, and learn from it."

Sooner or later, you'll realize how awesome you are deep within.

"Once upon a year gone by she saw herself give in. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw what could have been. Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds when covers tucked in tight. Finally when the bottom drops out, she forgets to fight.As darkness quickly steals the light that shined within her eyes, She slowly swallows all her fear and soothes her mind with lies. Well all she wants and all she needs are reasons to survive. A day in which the sun will take her artificial light, Her light.

And it's one more day in paradise.
One last chance to feel all right, All right"

P/S ; These silly little wounds will never mend, cause he's my first mistake.
But at least i can say, that i was not afraid. I loved you all the way, I'd pick a fool any day

PPS; I'll add up a new information about me on EVERY post so you'll know me better hahah.

- My favourite kiddy show would totally be Blues Clues, teletubbies and Power rangers.

Yes, blue dog, fat weird people and heroes in tight pants are awesome!

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